Wow! I think I've got it!

Music. It's like this mysterious mistress I have.

No, wait, I'm single.

It's more like the tax department...always doing things you'll never know about or understand, in places you will probably never go.

No, wait...I've never enjoyed the tax department.

It's like a carnival, that shows you the best time ever, but sometimes the lights go down and everyone goes home, and you're there, lonely as hell, wondering when the fun is going to start again. And sometimes the lights stay off for years. And even though you've been able to turn lights on before, and even wire them up from time to time, for some reason you just have no control of it right now. The carnival decides for itself.

Wait, I hate carnivals.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that music is beautiful, and inspirational, and even though at times I can't play it or write it for long periods of time, it's always there, sometimes comforting, sometimes taunting. I've had lovers like that, and they were hot.

And it can even make us jealous sometimes, at least, those of us with pretensions of writing music. Jealous we didn't write it 'Ape Dos Mil'- Glassjaw.. Or embarassed that we did! Some songs fire me up 'Still Beats Your Name'- Killswitch Engage, some chill me out again (Japanese Koto music). Some do my head in...The Dillinger Escape Plan, anyone?

I think my favourite feeling regarding music is that it's one of the only things that evolves with you through your life. I don't mean musical tastes, although I hope that yours have. No, what I mean is that, as humans, we're travelling through time, and we have a time limit. Our life, is kinda like a really long song. And music passes through time with us, beginning, existing, ending. It keeps us company, and leaves us sad by its passing, or hopeful for its return. Or even, in the case of Fleetwood Mac, scared of the possibility of its re emergence.

When I listen to "Chill' by Big Bud, that narrow window of time, that moment we call now, where everything starts and stops, that tiny sliver in which we live, I feel so in that moment when I'm hearing that song. I realised that back in 2000, when I lived with a bunch of Drum & Bass DJ's, that kind of sound was the soundtrack to my life. And I had never felt more in the moment and real as I did back then with them.

And when I hear that kind of music now, it drags me from wherever my head was stuck in, back to this moment, here, live, with you and the world.

And I realise that right now, with The Postal Service playing in my store, and my dog chewing on the chair leg, with a belly full of hot chocolate, and the prospect of catching up with a good friend later in the day, that life, and right now, and this moment is a pretty comfy place to be.

Wherever you are, and whatever you're doing, thank you for sharing in my moment. Tell me- what are you listening to?

This is knifey, from 'the internet'.